There. I said it. I am scared. I don’t know what’s going on, and I don’t know what’s happening to me. It has consumed me the last 24 hours, since admitting publicly that something just isn’t right with me, and now I am able to admit it to myself.
I am scared.
My breast is sick. I don’t know if it’s nursing/weaning/lactation related, or if it’s something worse. I’m trying not to jump ahead of myself here and do lots of internet research on the possibilities. I’m trying to keep myself from jumping to conclusions and fear. To stay positive and hopeful that it’s just an infection, or a fibroadema, or something I haven’t even heard of.
But it’s hard.
Thanks for your comments so far. I am so far out of my comfort zone on this, and I’m not sure where to turn for answers. I’ve found the Susan G. Komen site, breastcancer.org, and the NIH public education page. I found one blog — Killer Boob — which was fabulous — and gives me hope. But what I haven’t found are all the pages that say “this is benign.” “This is a simple breastfeeding complication.” “This will all be okay.”
Where are those pages?