Four days out (Cycle 2)

So the hardest part of Cycle 2 is over now.  I’ve been to chemo, I’ve spent four whole days in bed, and I’m starting to get up and around again.

It wasn’t an easy one.  It was extremely difficult to get out of bed at any point this weekend, and my arm and chest ache (from the cancer, maybe referred nerve pain, we’re not totally sure) tremendously, but between the pain pills and the anti-nausea meds and the bathing in good wishes and prayers this weekend, I feel so much better now.

I even got to spend some real time with my kids today.  The last few days have mostly been horizontal parenting, watching DVDs (a couple new ones from Parent Bloggers that I’ll be reviewing this month), reading books, and listening to Widget’s stories in between the near-constant naps (theirs and mine!), but today I was downstairs for a playdate, and Widget and his little friend had a great time together while her mom and I talked.  It was great.  I have to admit, part of the hardest part of all this for me is the loneliness of not being able to get out and around for playdates and adventures with the little ones.

At 6.5 months, Little Bear is sitting up now, playing on his mat and in the Exersaucers that we have (borrowed and) set up around the house (he spends more time in there than his brother did, I’m afraid, since I can’t hold him for very long these days).  I taught him to pull a lever on his pop-up toy last night, and when the little plastic animal popped out, he was so surprised!

Widget is growing like a weed, both in creativity and imagination.  Last week, he was working on something in the playroom while I held Little Bear, and when I asked him what it was, he held up a dowel with a long piece of string tied around it, and he very matter-of-factly said, “fishing pole.”  Cuteness.  This weekend, he tied one end of his skein of red yarn around a ball and made a toy to toss down the steps and retrieve, and then we turned it into a jump rope (at his request).  He and his little friend today had an amazing time just hopping across a piece of red yarn that we Mommies held and occasionally wiggled.  It makes me smile to see him so creative, and so happy.

And that, friends, is where we are this time, four days out.  Creative, crafty, and happy.  Tonight, we even left the house in search of ice cream cones.  Sitting in the car with my husband and son, ice cream melting all over us in the sticky summer heat, I experienced a few moments of peace and joy, where I didn’t even think about the cancer. 

Just the happy.


34 Responses to Four days out (Cycle 2)

  1. NYfriend says:

    So glad you had such a nice day. And Mmmm ice cream!

  2. Imstell says:

    That’s what it’s all about. String and fishing poles and ice cream. You’re a 1/4 or the way there! Congratulations!

  3. I wish I could bottle that joy and happy you are feeling!! So delighted to hear what a wonderful day you’ve had.

    Love to you xo

  4. Mad Hatter says:

    Widget sounds so delightful, so creative. I’m glad that you had a day of respite in the journey.

  5. Scylla says:

    It’s good to hear you got to get out and play!

  6. yay! drippy, creamy, sweet ordinariness.

  7. Aliki says:

    I’m glad about the happy–so very glad.

  8. not thinking about the cancer, and ice cream:

    sounds like two treats to me.

    i’m glad.

  9. i’m ever so sappy for your happy. 🙂

  10. Kat says:

    I’m so happy your day was better. I’m still getting responses on the post I put on my blog. I’ll keep spreading the word. As a breast cancer survivor, I know how important it is to get the message “out there”. Thank you, thank you for being so honest and up front with us all.

    Kat (hope the bible verses are soothing to your soul)

  11. I found this post so moving today. I wish many of these kind of happy days for you. You must be a great mom…
    Catherine, the redhead

  12. andi says:

    I wish for you many more moments of “just the happy.”

  13. So beautiful. Here’s to many more days of simple joys.

  14. Danielle says:

    Yay! I’m so happy you had time to relax and be happy with the kids today. I wish for you MANY MANY of these moments to help give you an emotional boost.

  15. ella says:

    This was so lovely to read. Wishing you many more moments of peace and joy.

  16. Robin says:

    Horizontal parenting. *snort* I love it! Glad the hard part of this cycle is over. May you have many, many more good days…

  17. ~JJ! says:

    Sounds yummy. All of it.

    Glad you enjoyed your time with your babies.

  18. Jennifer says:

    Keep enjoying the happy! So nice to enjoy those babies, huh?

  19. pat says:

    What a great post:)
    Thinking of you.

  20. Angela says:

    My son loved his exersaucer too. I’m sure Little Bear is loving his vertical playtime. 😉 And Widget is just such a joy! Who knew string was so fun?!

  21. Your mom shared your plight and your site with me. Tom and I have been praying since we heard — now that I’ve read a bit I’m praying better, harder, more fervently. Our baby Grant (my grandson) is the same age as your little bear. I’m so nervous to tell his mama (my daughter-in-law) and my nieces about IBC. I’m so afraid of alarming them, and yet, knowledge is the key to prevention. So…alarm them I will, with your help through this site. Thank you for all the work you are doing. May God bless you richly (oh wait, He already has!) May He heal you completely!

    Love & Prayers, Betsy (2nd cousin in-law)

  22. Gill says:

    I am so, so glad that you had this happy time – wishing you many more moments like this.

  23. MammaLoves says:

    Ice cream has many healing properties.

  24. Linda Sue says:

    Well I’m not a mommy, or a phsicist or a witty writer or a woman with a huge circle of loving friends or (as far as is known at this moment_ a person with cancer. What I am is a Prayer- so that is what I will do. Just found you through BooMama – Bless you dear sweet lady.

  25. Linda Sue says:

    Also had tears in my eyes as I wrote – so I’m not a physicist either – whatever I wrote before! Keyboard seems to be possessed – by my fumbling fingers! Heart is the same – spelling somewhat corrected.

  26. Brownie says:

    Well, I drop by each day for a short visit. Today’s visit was a particularly good one! Glad you’re over one hump and ice cream is such a good way to celebrate, right? And I love reading what your other “visitors” have to say–such wonderful comments. It’s a good thing that the Internet exists because you couldn’t fit all these friends into your living room.

  27. practiceliving says:

    Lots of prayers for continued creativity and melty ice cream, mama. Keep rockin’ on!

  28. Jacquie says:

    Yay for good days, and of course ice cream.

    I am in awe of the support you have driven to get IBC out there. You rock WhyMommy.

    Did you have a link for the head covers posted? I scrolled back and couldn’t find one?

    I have quickly discovered my friend who started chemo last week has the same type of days.

  29. Leann I Am says:

    I am so happy to read about your good day. It’s days like this that keep us all going.

    Keep on impressing me! You’re doing GREAT!

  30. NoRegrets says:

    I went searching for happiness quotes, and I think this applies to you:

    The Grand essentials of happiness are: something to do, something to love, and something to hope for.

  31. Ally says:

    Oh, the happy! Hooray! Glad that you’re feeling this way.

  32. cindy says:

    being a three year survivor of IBC I just want you to know you WILL get through this

  33. Nancy says:

    I’ve been thinking of you lots even though I’ve been negligent about coming by to comment. It’s great to hear your kids are thriving in the midst of all this and that you’re able to spend some quality time together.

  34. Anna says:

    Ice cream and happy–that’s the good stuff

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