Were I to use this blog only to recount the kindnesses of friends and strangers, I would still post every day, and it would be cram-packed full of stories. I would write today of the kindness of my friend Mike, who picked us up yesterday when our car stalled and I was stuck with a carful of groceries and a toddler — who was NOT going to ride in the front seat of the tow truck, despite how happy it would have made him. I would write of the kindness of Stimey, who watched my kids this morning while I went to cancer yoga to work on the pain and weakness in my upper chest. I would write of Jacquie, who brought over dinner and special treats from Trader Joe’s. I would write of the elves that quietly leave me a bag of goodies every morning I go to chemo, cheering me on the days I don’t want to step outside and go down to the hospital for treatment.
I would write of the kindness of my parents and my husband’s parents, who have put their lives on hold to care for us during this time when I am having trouble caring for myself.
I would write the first paragraph over and over, until it became boring for you, for every week, a mom helps me with the kids while I go to cancer yoga. Every week, a mom brings over dinner, to give our caregivers a bit of a break. Every week, a mom calls to see what she can pick up for me at the store, to see if there’s an errand I need running that I can’t pull myself out of bed to go and do. Every week, I get cards and letters from cousins and aunts and friends, bringing a bit of cheer.
Every week, you, my blogfriends, leave me comments and send me email, checking in, asking about me, letting me know that I am not alone.
And because of you, all of you, I am gathering the strength to go on, to pick myself up, and to get back to the business of living.
Today I am stronger than I was yesterday. The chemo is working. The tumor is shrinking. And my spirit — my spirit is stronger than it has ever been. Today I am reminded of all the good there is in the world.
Whatever your day brings, I hope that it brings you as well a moment of kindness, and a moment of peace.