My legs are healing. I’m able to walk again and use my legs. Only my right foot remains numb, but I am confident that will resolve in time to get chemo this week. I am confident. Thank you for your wonderful comments on yesterday’s post — I do need this safe space, even though I know now that friends and family and longago friends are reading here as well. I really don’t mean to worry you. . . but I do need to talk about all aspects of my fight here. As Kate said, this is my safe space, and some days I need to use it more than others. Here’s a better story for today.
Last night, while waiting for WonderDaddy to come home from work, my oldest was fidgety. We’d already played with play-doh, done puzzles, pretended to be in a rocket ship that was ready to blast off, and built forts out of pillows. Truth be told, we were both at loose ends, at the end of the afternoon. So we went outside to wait for Daddy to return from the Metro. A light fog blanketed the area, making it cool and misty, and giving an almost otherworldy aura to the night.
We talked about the weather and looked at our neighbor’s houses in the fog, but Widget was still fidgety.
We looked at our own house in the fog, but Widget was still fidgety.
We sat on the stoop and I began to hum a tune. Widget liked that. He looked up at me expectantly with those big blue eyes. So I stood up and sang him a dancing song. His eyes lit up and he began to dance. After a moment, I began to dance with him. The verses became sillier and sillier, and so did we. We were dancers, we were airplanes, we were weightless there in the misty evening.
When Daddy came home, he found us dancing in the rain, singing a silly made-up song together, and moving around like airplanes in slow motion. His eyes lit up too, happy to see me happy, and happy to see me feeling so much better than I had the past few days. He put down his laptop, dropped his work burdens, and began to dance with us. In the garage, in the rain, in the moment.
And for a moment, we were happy and carefree, dancing together in the rain.