Thanks to BlogHer’s Health and Wellness archives and writer Amanda Schaeffer, I’ve found something to pull me out of my funk. It’s this quote from Miles Levine, a 19 year old cancer patient fighter who lost his battle late last year. He kept an online journal at Care Pages that was an inspiration to many. After his recurrence, he wrote the following for CNN:
Unlike many cancer patients, I don’t have much anger. The way I see it, we’re not entitled to one breath of air. We did nothing to earn it, so whatever we get is bonus. I might be more than a little disappointed with the hand I’ve been dealt, but this is what it is. Thinking about what it could be is pointless. It ought to be different, that’s for sure, but it ain’t. A moment spent moping is a moment wasted.
And that, coupled with my description yesterday of my moping about my upcoming anniversary, is that. No more moping.
Yes, I had cancer. Yes, it will probably come back. But it isn’t back today. Today I can spend any way that I want — working on my new blog project, talking with other women in science, blogging here, doing research to jumpstart my next project, working on my NASA book, playing with my children, racing matchbox cars around the room with them, laughing in the sprinkler, getting messy with water or playdoh or sand, and cuddling on the couch with my husband when he comes home from work.
Tomorrow may be uncertain, but today is a gift.
I’m not going to spend another day moping about what may come.