Today, I have happy news. Today, I submitted a proposal for some work to be done in 2009, 2010, and 2011. Last year, it would have been unimaginable for me to plan that far ahead. Last year at this time, I couldn’t even walk — and it was a leap of faith for me to buy a 2008 calendar. But today, I am healthy. The cancer is not spreading. It is not crippling my body or my spirit as it did some months ago (not that it should — but, I admit, I did struggle). I have reached the holy grail of remission, and 6 months of clean scans.
Today, I am focused on the future. On winning this proposal. On submitting a paper to a referreed journal. On running a 1k race on Thanksgiving Day.
I know that I am incredibly lucky. I am. I am thankful. And I know just how lucky I am to be looking to the future without always seeing the face of cancer standing in my way.
Thanksgiving 2008 will be an incredible celebration for me. I will give thanks. I will also say a prayer for all my sisters at Mothers With Cancer, as I often do. May they also get happy news this year, and thrive whether or not their cancer is gone.