“Table for two,” I quipped, as Little Bear and I checked in for my oncology visit today.  The nurse smiled, took my name, and waved me over to the seating area.  I had my blood taken (with him perching in the chair with me, endlessly fascinated), waited another hour or so, and then we were ushered into the waiting room.

WonderDaddy, Little Bear, and I waited in that room, as we had so many times before.  We were nervous, I was pacing (coincidentally the only position my back can stand besides lying down), and it seemed like another hour before the hematology/oncology fellow walked into the room.

Twenty minutes after that, my oncologist arrived, listened to me explain my back pain and fears again, checked me over, and said, “It doesn’t look like mets.”


Those were the five words I most wanted to hear today.

It doesn’t look like mets.

She asked for a PET scan and a CT anyway, and referred me to a spine specialist, so there are things that can be done to fix the problem and relieve the pain.  But what I most feared — that this was the metastasis of cancer to my bones, necessitating maintenance chemo weekly or tri-weekly for the rest of my life — has not yet happened.

I have another chance.

You’d better believe I’m going to take it.


31 Responses to Relief

  1. kami says:

    Best news of the day 🙂

  2. I am doing a little happy dance for you!!!

  3. clifford says:

    Ey. Do they have you on any type of strengthening program or protein-rich diet to build those muscles? (i recommend Muscle Milk. it is very tasty, yessir)

  4. Anne says:

    Wonderful news. We’re all cheering with you.

  5. magpie says:

    Really glad to hear that. Good luck with the scans.

  6. mumma boo says:

    Hurray! That’s great news! 🙂

  7. *m* says:

    So glad to hear this. Hurray!

  8. Stimey says:

    I agree: best news of the day!

  9. Kristin says:

    Congratulations! I’m so happy for you. What great words.

  10. Lisa says:

    Yippee!!! So happy for you!!!

  11. poppingbubbles says:

    Hurray! I’m so happy to hear this news. Congratulations!!!

  12. That is fabulous news! Congrats!

  13. Phew! Doing a little dance over here for you!!! Love today’s post.

  14. Robin says:

    So so so so happy for you!

  15. ella says:

    Fantastic news!

  16. donna4k says:

    O thank goodness 🙂

  17. JessicaAPISS says:

    I am so happy for you, all four of you, and your internal peace especially. I will continue to pray that the pain leaves you.

  18. Linda Lawrence says:

    Great news!
    🙂 🙂 🙂

  19. NYFriend says:

    Hurrah indeed! I’m so very happy for you and for the boys. 🙂

    Hope the spine specialist finds great solutions for you. 🙂

  20. NoRegrets says:

    Great, but does that mean you can find some way to lessen the pain?

  21. mj tam says:

    Love hearing this great news! (hugs)

  22. Ally says:

    What a relief. Thanks for sharing this good news!

  23. I’m hoping you can hear all of us heaving a collective sigh of relief… And the great big “cheer!!” we’re sending up, just for you.

    xoxoxo CGF

  24. marty says:

    I’m so glad.

  25. Amelie says:

    yay — I’m so glad to hear that.

  26. Bon says:

    Susan, this constant pain and the fear behind it has to be so hard. i breathed a sigh of relief aloud when i got to the reveal of the post (um, once my sheltered self worked out “mets” in my own head)…but i know that doesn’t take the pain in your back or side away.

    i’m sorry you’re suffering. i’m glad you have another chance. i hope there are days soon that come easier.

  27. Aunt Pat says:

    That’s Great. I’m always thinking about you and always hoping tomorrow will be a better day. Love

  28. […] But now I am.  I have another chance. […]

  29. Take it, take it, take it! And run. Go live! So glad to hear it, Susan 🙂

  30. kikarose says:

    Best news I’ve heard all year.
    I didn’t have a chance to come and check on you until today and I’m so glad to see that things are ok.
    I hope they can help with the pain soon though!

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