Fred Scarf, you’re a good one.
What I like most about the CNN story I just linked to is that even though he lost his friend to cancer, 20-year-old Fred decided to take — and took — a positive step to make life better for someone else. His words are beautiful and inspiring. And listen to one of the cancer survivors he has helped, 15-year-old Samantha Ashburn: “I don’t know how long I have here. So I want to live it up….”
It’s funny. Before I got cancer, I would have thought, “how sad.” But now, I know exactly what she means. It’s a simple fact of life. There’s no time to waste — let’s get living! I forget that sometimes, and get wallowed in the sadness and the anger (which is many times worse when I am tired or in pain, and this week has been awful in that respect). But I don’t want to live that way. I don’t want to be remembered that way. I want to leave more behind than words of sadness. And more importantly — I want to live my life differently, helping others, as opposed to bringing anybody down with sad words. I’m not fishing for comments here. I’m okay. But I am determined to work through my own list today (my kids are off blueberry picking) and stop the sadness that comes with being so tired. The fatigue is normal — they call it radiation fatigue for a reason — and I will gain more energy in the weeks and months after I finish treatment. For now, I’ll do what I can and call it good.
There’s no time to waste — let’s get living!