Is it only Day 2? It seems like Day 4 or 5 already, but my wristband does say yesterday, so it must be so.
After waiting all day without a drop to drink or bite to eat, as per presurgical instructions, I finally found out that they wouldn’t be able to take me for surgery today to insert my port after all. A full day of scheduled procedures + an emergency added to the schedule at the last minute meant that they just woudn’t get to me today. So at 3:15 I was able to eat breakfast and have my morning Diet Coke.
The nurses finally found me another room too – I woke at 6 a.m. to the sound of banging on the walls and power drills shortly thereafter, as the hospital pit crew deconstructed the room next to me. I don’t know what they were doing exactly, but the door was covered with layers of plastic sheeting and even the nurses weren’t to knock. I’m happy to be moved down the hall, even if it did mean lying on the couch in the family waiting room most of the day, until they were able to find me a bed in another room.
Not much is happening around here. I’ve spent hours curled up in terrible pain as the meds wear off, hours sleeping off the meds, and some not insignificant period of time just sitting here with my laptop, playing City of Wonder (an online multiplayer civilization building game – I’m in Cat guild if you’re a gamer looking to check it out) and trying to ignore the beeping IVs down the hall. The one next to me is quiet, softly pumping saltwater into my hand, keeping me hydrated while I wait, again, for the port to be put in and the oncologist appointment that has been apparently moved to tomorrow.
The medications are diluting the pain and every 2 hours I feel pretty decent. I have a pain team, working from pallative care, an oncology team ready to spring into action when the pain is managed, and a great set of nurses.
And friends. I see you here and on twitter, and thank you, as always, for your steadfast support and love. I am trying to get back to normal, to write stories, to contribute again, and to make a poster for next week’s meeting of the Astronomical Society of the Pacific (about social media as e-mentoring!). I haven’t worked in a week, though, and shan’t tomorrow. Now is a time of rest.