A little trouble

I’ve been having shortness of breath for several weeks, which we chalked up to the pneumonia, but it’s just gotten worse. Yesterday I had trouble just walking from one room to the next. Today, just sitting on the couch with a friend. In fact, I’m still having trouble, even though I’ve been hooked up to the oxygen all day.

We’re going to the ER now, to get scans, at the direction of my oncologist. Please pray for us tonight.

Love to you all and all whom you love,


254 Responses to A little trouble

  1. Lisa says:

    Keeping you in my thoughts, Susan. You are there often.

  2. Praying, praying, praying for all of you and all you love.

  3. Cheryl Mattis says:

    Thinking of you and wishing you comfort.

  4. Barbatthebeach says:

    You are in my thoughts.

  5. Praying for a peace that surpasses all understanding will surround you tonight as you seek answers.
    You are never far from my thoughts, my friend.

  6. Catherine says:

    Lots and lots of love to you and your family, Susan.

  7. {sue} says:

    Consider the heavens stormed on your behalf. Love to you.

  8. Anna says:

    Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers Susan.

  9. 20901 Mom says:

    I think of you often, and now even more so.

  10. Jodi says:

    We are praying for you Susan!

  11. Amy says:

    Oh Susan, feel better. You’re never far from my thoughts.

  12. jodifur says:

    All my thoughts.

  13. Fran says:

    I am so very sorry, Susan dear. I’m praying fervently for a favorable outcome for you and much relief from your breathing struggles. “Love to you, and all who you love, and all you love, too.”

  14. Praying for you and for God’s wisdom and understanding for you, your husband, and your medical team. May the Lord strengthen and uphold you and give you His peace. Sending love and hugs.

  15. Alice Wessen says:

    Praying for you Susan. Love, virtual hugs and prayers for you.

  16. Colleen says:

    I’ve been praying for you all day — you are always on my heart. I hope that they can find you some relief. May God hold you close and give you strength and healing.

  17. Praying for you Susan.

  18. Richard & Judy Foster says:

    Praying for you now, that fear will be removed
    and your will get better and back home tonight.

  19. Lisa says:

    Hi Susan,

    I’ve been reading your blog for years. I will be praying for you and sending good vibes your way. Stay strong!


  20. Anita says:

    Praying for you–many hugs for you and your family

  21. Aunt Becky says:

    I never stop praying. Love you, Susan.

  22. Twice Five Miles says:

    Sending you much love.

  23. clifford says:

    Here’s to a quick return to your hacienda and a pint of Ben & Jerry’s in your hands, Susan. Love ya.

  24. Beckie says:

    Oh, Susan. Please be ok. I will be constantly praying for you. Try not to worry until you know there is a problem. That was always our policy.

  25. Keeping you and your family close to my heart, Susan. Hope the folks at the ER can help you breath easier and you are back home very soon.

  26. Debbie in Memphis says:

    You are often in my thoughts and always in my prayers. I’ll be adding extra prayers and hoping for healing. Sending love to you and yours.

  27. Praying, sending love, praying…

  28. YP says:

    Susan, I’m sorry to hear about this development. I’m thinking of you and praying that all will be OK soon. Take care.

  29. Katie says:

    Thinking of you and your family, Susan. x

  30. Elaine says:

    I hope they find relief for you, Susan. Much love, Elaine

  31. Wordgirl says:

    My love and prayers to you Susan. To you and your boys and your husband. My prayers. I’m thinking of you. This blog is so indispensable to me. Thank you for your words.



  32. Wordgirl says:

    Reblogged this on Not So Martha and commented:
    Your comments (optional)

    • Wordgirl says:

      I tried to reblog this on my normal blog — bloodsigns –but it ended up on the blog I haven’t used and now I’m unable to post it on my regular blog — but nonetheless I will send all the prayers I can gather your way…

  33. Karen says:

    Dear Susan, we are thinking of you and your family constantly and sending our love, strength and healing. We’ve been looking at the sky – space – the stars and constellations over here in London and one of my twin girls (8 years old), who knows all about you, said “I’d love a job like Susan the space scientist!”. What a wonderful inspiration you are …to us all! We pray that you will have good news and recover quickly. Sending all our love and healing thoughts.

  34. Karen says:

    My thoughts are with you Susan. Sending healing energy your way.

  35. Susan, you have been on my mind a lot. I say a prayer for you every single time I think of your name. Sending you a big virtual hug from Nashville.

  36. Steadfast prayer being sent from Houston from dear friends of Colleen Zarzecki. We pray for intercession by Blessed John Paul II, as that is the name of our children’s school. Proud of your acceptance of God’s will for you in this illness and knowing that He has the ability to cure you just as quickly as you were diagnosed. Offering up all the joys, troubles and crosses of our days here in Houston for your return to the fullness of life. I know that miracles happen and that you are more than deserving of one. God is merciful. Everything is grace…..

  37. Karen says:

    Sending prayers to you and your family

  38. Karen G says:

    Susan, Like so many others, I hope and pray for your improved health and wellbeing.

  39. edenland says:

    Susan, love to you. Keeping you all in my thoughts. XXXX

  40. Kaylee says:

    Been following your blog for a long time – you and those you love are in my prayers. Love from Australia.

  41. Kate Edenborg says:

    You are on my mind and in my heart!

  42. Loran says:

    Peace be with you and your family Susan. Love and prayers coning your way. xo

  43. Jayme says:

    Praying Susan, as hard and as much as I know how. Love to you, you’re in my thoughts.

  44. Jeannine says:

    much love to you Susan! Sending you soft hugs and big prayers.

  45. Nicole Fribush says:

    My thoughts and prayers are with you Susan. Today and everyday.

  46. Prayers from London to join the multitude. And love to your incredible family!

  47. MyLifeAsItIs says:

    In my thoughts. Always.

  48. Natalie says:

    Much love to you & your family, sweetheart. Praying unceasingly for your comfort now & always.

  49. *m* says:

    Sending up all my most hopeful and positive thoughts, Susan.

  50. MomMeTime says:

    praying for your peace and comfort … to you and your family!

  51. Diane says:

    Susan, words can’t express what I feel right now for you. You encompass so much, have given so much….your love,strength and courage are as immeasurable as the stars in the sky.

  52. Betty Wilson says:

    Thoughts and prayers are with you and your loved ones.

  53. Sue says:

    Thinking of you Susan!

  54. Emily says:


  55. Amanda says:

    Love and prayers.

  56. imstell says:

    ALWAYS in my prayers, my dear… but I’ll pray double time for you tonight!

  57. Meghan says:

    Thinking of you, Susan. xoxo

  58. meg huber says:

    praying, praying, praying

  59. Susan,
    Love to you and all whom you love as well. And the prayers, being sent for sure.

  60. uvmer says:

    Sending much love and many prayers on a beam of starlight directly to you.

  61. Cindy R says:

    Thinking of you. Praying for you and your family. Cindy

  62. Cindy R says:

    Thinking of you and praying for your family.

  63. Brandie says:

    Susan, I’m praying for you right now.

  64. Ruthis from CAlifornia says:

    I pray that you will be comfortable and that they will be able to resolve this shortness of breath issue ASAP. Blessings to you this night.

  65. allison says:

    You are the very embodiment of courage and grace. I wish for you and your family all the strength and comfort that is possible.

  66. Julie Marsh says:

    Thinking of you. Please be well.

  67. Stephanie says:

    Sending warm and healing thoughts your way, Susan. Hoping the medical folks can bring you some relief and easier breathing. Love to you and your family.

  68. NYFriend says:

    Thinking of you and hoping for test results that lend themselves to a great plan of action for you to feel better.

  69. kimmer says:

    Good luck – I hope you get relief after your visit to the ER. I’m keeping you in my thoughts.and prayers.

  70. Rachael says:

    You’re in my thoughts and prayers tonight.

  71. Peggy says:

    I’m always amazed at the miracles of modern medicine and the resiliency of the human body and spirit. Please know that you are in my thoughts – – – and, as of now, in my Prayer Box.

  72. schmutzie says:

    My heart is with you and your family tonight. Much love.

  73. queenofspain says:

    thinking of you and thinking of you and thinking of you and thinking of you and thinking of you … xoxoxoxoxox

  74. Love and more love. Prayers and more prayers.

  75. Susan – I found my way here via twitter, courtesy of someone in Canada I follow… Aurelia Cotta.

    At a time like this, I can’t imagine what it can possibly mean to have a message of support from some random guy in the UK.

    But, for what it’s worth (and I hope it’s worth something) you are in my thoughts.


  76. Kellie says:

    Thoughts and prayers to you. Hope you get some relief.

  77. Bon says:

    oh, my friend. love and prayers tonight. always.

    i have a friend and colleague here undergoing chemo. i saw him today, for the first time in a month or so. we ended up talking about it, and it was extraordinarily human conversation. i thank you, for all you’ve taught me here, for what i am still learning, about how to sit with someone in the middle of the uncertainty that is living, and…to not try to make it all okay. just to have it BE, good and warm and human and sad, all at once. i am sorry you’ve been cast in this particular teaching role. i am grateful beyond for the grace with which you’ve stepped into it.

  78. laurie says:

    Lighting a candle for you tonight. Love.

  79. Julie says:

    You’re in my heart and my prayers.

    Thinking of you always.

  80. Jenna says:

    You are in my thoughts and prayers.

  81. Megan says:

    Prayers for you Susan. For comfort and peace of mind and rest. But I am angry for you – angry that you have to go through this. Life isn’t fair. But the prayers and thoughts will keep on coming.

  82. Manic Mommy says:

    Sending prayers, strength, lessening of pain, and deep, free breaths. Much love.


  83. Taunia says:

    praying for you and your family. for peace, comfort, lessening of pain.

  84. Sarah Piazza says:

    Love you, Susan. Holding you close.

  85. Dawn says:

    I hold you in my heart. Right here. ❤

  86. Magpie says:

    Love to you, Susan. So much.

  87. Prayers for a quick Dx and resolution to the breathing difficulties. Gentle hugs and get that gunk out! Breath freely!

  88. alejna says:

    I will be thinking of you.

  89. Rachelpappas says:

    Thinking of you today as I so often do. And I’m hoping for all the best, Susan.

  90. Annettek says:

    Sending you much love and many prayers tonight Susan.

  91. Nicole says:

    Always thinking of you Susan. Feel better.

  92. Prayers from Pennsylvania, Susan. Feel better – breathe easy – much love to all of you.

  93. Kyla says:

    Lots of thoughts and prayers, Susan.

  94. Fadra says:

    Praying for you and your family, Susan.

  95. Melissa says:

    Many thoughts and prayers for you tonight, Susan. You’re never far from my thoughts, but especially so this evening. Much love.

  96. Karianna says:

    Praying. I am thinking of you and your family often. XOXO.

  97. Jada says:

    Thoughts…and love. Much much much love for all of you.

  98. zahra says:

    Our thoughts and prayers are with you, dear Susan. With love

  99. Sending lots of prayers and love your way.

  100. neeroc says:

    Love and hope to you and your family. I hope they are able to help you to find relief.

  101. Susan says:

    Praying for you

  102. I’ll keep you and your family in my thoughts and prayers.

  103. Stimey says:

    Susan, you have every good wish and piece of love I have.

  104. liz says:

    sending loving, healing blessings, friend.

  105. Bridget says:

    Praying for you all.

  106. Jordan says:

    Thinking of you, Susan, sending love.

  107. Lisa says:

    Sending healing thoughts and constant prayers. Thank you Susan. Words can’t begin to adequately capture how much you have helped us all. Hope you get back home soon and can breath easily.

  108. Prayers and (((hugs)))

  109. Jessica R. says:

    Praying and thinking of you.

  110. We love you Susan, and hope the docs can do something to make you more comfortable and to figure out what is going on.

  111. Ellie Rancont says:

    Praying for you. (((Hugs)))

  112. Thinking of you Susan. {{hugs}}

  113. pgoodness says:

    Many good thoughts and prayers to you and yours…tonight and always.

  114. Leslie says:

    Prayers going up for you and your family, Susan.

  115. hollynyny says:

    You are in my prayers, Susan. xxooo

  116. we love you and we can’t stop thinking about you. All of us on twitter tonight have been praying for you. Much love. xo

  117. Kara L. says:

    Susan, you continue to amaze me with your strength, courage, faith and grace. You have so many prayers being said on your behalf today and every day. I pray for you and your sweet family and send much love!!

  118. Lesley @Avalea says:

    I am sending, out and up, the warmest and most soothing intentions that I can muster. May long breaths return and healing peace be with you and your family. xoxoxo

  119. Chrissy says:

    We are all thinking about you! And sending you and your family big hugs!

  120. Loukia says:

    You’re in my thoughts and prayers.

  121. taristhread says:

    Let me add my prayers to all of those before. Hope that by the time you read this you are breathing easier. Lots of love, Tari

  122. elesha says:

    Open lines of prayer for you all day. When ever you pop in my head I am sending a prayer up to God. Peace and and healing.

  123. Janine says:

    Done and done. You were on my mind today. Now I know why. XOXO

  124. EmmieJ says:

    Thinking of you, Susan.

  125. Mairbear says:

    Love and prayers for the very best.

  126. Abbi says:

    praying for you.

  127. Joeymom says:

    Sending prayers and anxiously awaiting update. *hugs*

  128. Sending positive thoughts and peace your way.

  129. Emily says:

    And to you, Susan.

  130. you’ve been in my thoughts – sending lots of good ones your way. hope you are breathing easier soon.

  131. robinlerner says:

    Have been following your blog for quite some time, but have never commented before. A little family in northern Maryland is sending prayers and healing wishes up for you.

  132. Lili says:

    praying for you

  133. Tammy & James Dean says:

    Tammy and James have you lovingly in our prayers.

  134. Thinking of you and your family–and praying….

  135. Beth says:

    I, too, have been following for a while and thinking of you. Sending extra prayers your way. You are one tough cookie.

  136. Maureen says:

    Sending the most positive vibes possible to you & your family.

  137. Keeping you and your family in my thoughts tonight.

  138. Prayers heading your way.

  139. JenC says:

    Thinking of you tonight and sending love and prayers.

  140. Lots of prayers, so very many prayers going to you and your family tonight.

  141. Denise says:

    Sending much love your way Susan.

  142. jenny says:

    sending prayers to you and your family.

  143. Alisa says:

    Prayers for you from Utah.

  144. Meghan says:

    praying for you from Pittsburgh, PA

  145. julie says:

    You are in our thoughts and we are hoping for the best while waiting for more news…

  146. Holding you very close in my heart and sending good thoughts all the way from Israel.


  147. Midnightmama says:

    My thoughts are with you and you’re in my prayers.

  148. VDog says:

    Sending all my love & strength to you. Xoxo

  149. Holding you all in my heart. Love and light to you, dear friend. And to your family & friends.

  150. Caroline says:

    Praying for you! Praying for comfort and strength.

  151. Alison says:

    Thinking of you. X

  152. Tina says:

    Praying you you, Susan, and all you love… and all who love you…

  153. dipaolamomma says:

    I think of you daily and keep you in my prayers nightly. HUGS

  154. Nicole says:

    Thinking of you. Hugs and love. 🙂

  155. Linda Lawrence says:

    Praying for you!

  156. Alice C says:

    Sending you and your family much love from England.

  157. victoria says:

    I’m really sorry to hear that. I hope it’s still the pneumonia and nothing else, and that they can get you some relief very soon!

  158. Jess Lippy says:

    We are thinking and praying for you.

  159. add me to this long list…

  160. Jill B says:

    Dear Susan,
    Without even knowing it, you helped guide me through my own journey with breast cancer. And so I write today to repay this enormous debt with hopes and prayers for your comfort and well-being. With magnificent grace, you inspire all those who are fortunate enough to read your words. Wishing you deep, easy breaths and many gentle hugs. Be well my friend.

  161. Janine Davis says:

    Many prayers and much love for you, Susan.

  162. Eve in Silver Spring says:

    My thoughts and prayers are with you! You’re not alone.

  163. Praying. Hard. Be strong.

    xoxo CGF

  164. Rachel Wickman says:

    Shit shit shit!! Praying PRAYING for you Susan! Stay strong, sending big hugs and love!

  165. Aunt Pat says:

    You are always in our thoughts and prayers ! Take care hope you are feeling better real soon. Love

  166. binkytowne says:

    Love to you and all you love .. times infinity (I’m going to end all my comments/tweets to you like that because your good at math? Get it? Get it???!!

  167. Beth says:

    So many people praying for you, Susan, and you can add me to that list. You bring so much comfort to so many people with your wonderful words, I hope that some of that can be returned to you today.

  168. Thinking of you…. hope you are getting some relief.

  169. kami says:

    Praying for you. You’re one of the strongest I’ve ever came across. Thank you for teaching us all something.

  170. Sending you all my strength.

  171. You are always in my thoughts and prayers. Extra-especially so today. xo

  172. Heather says:

    Praying for you, Susan.

  173. Heather Weir says:

    Sending you positive thoughts and prayers.

  174. Thinking of you. Sending thoughts, positive vibes and energy your way.

  175. I join with everyone else who are sending healing thoughts, gentle hugs and prayers your way, Susan.

  176. Love and prayers to you, Susan… thinking aobout you!

  177. Susan – sending lots of prayers (extra ones today…you are always in my prayers) your way!

  178. laura says:

    saying prayers for you…..

  179. Marcia says:

    More prayers coming your way… May you find peace and strength to deal with another obstacle on your journey.

  180. Susan says:

    You have all my thoughts and loving wishes, flowing for you, your family, and your medical team.

  181. […] now Susan needs some prayers. If you’re the praying sort, please think of […]

  182. Jan says:

    So sorry to hear that you are having trouble. We are praying hard for your recovery.

  183. Jen Lawrence says:

    You are in my thoughts and prayers!

  184. twobusy says:

    Thoughts, hopes and prayers all headed skyward, with you in mind.

  185. Jamie says:

    God bless you Susan…sending you love and prayers.

  186. Just wanted you to know you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. I’m sending you love and wishing you all the best.

  187. Erin says:

    Sending prayers for comfort and better breathing.

  188. Donna says:

    Sending loving thoughts to you and yours. Wish we all could bag up some breath and health and send it to you!

  189. Tammie says:

    Hoping you are breathing easier now Susan. Peace Love and Strength to you.

  190. Sending warm and positive thoughts to you and your family, Susan. Hopefully it’s just some residual from the pneumonia and nothing more sinister.

  191. erika says:

    I am a long time reader and have never commented. Definitely praying for you, Susan, and your family as well.

  192. revdrmom says:

    Praying for you and your family, Susan….for comfort and peace.

  193. Niksmom says:

    Prayers and love sent.

  194. Robin says:

    You’re in our thoughts and prayers.

  195. NOR says:

    Thinking of you.

  196. Your influence as well as your circle of friends is far wider than you can possibly realize. Warms thoughts and prayers for peace and comfort are coming your way from Memphis!

  197. Allison says:

    Praying for you, Susan.

  198. Carina says:

    Praying so hard for you, for your family.

  199. CeCe says:

    Hoping and praying that all will be well.

  200. jl says:

    Prayers. . .

  201. Praying for your pulmonary status to improve and for your cancer to disappear.

  202. Lara Cooke Morford says:


    You are in my daily prayers. I hope the trip to the ER has given you relief and that you are home soon.

    Sending you love and positive energy,

  203. Adam says:

    May you be filled with Ruach and ruach.

  204. every day, every day, I pray for you and your family.

  205. caro says:

    much love to you and your family, susan.

  206. Kelly Kruger says:

    Shedding tears as I send yet another round of hearfelt prayers on your behalf. Heartbroken that you, and so many have experienced the severe hardship of this devastating disease. Comforted in knowing that you have an army of supporters and a strong faith that will continue to carry you through the most challenging times. Hopeful that your trip to the ER was a minor detour and that you are already in the comfort of your family at home. May your entire family and circle of friends continue to hold you up through their prayers, words and acts of kindness.

  207. I am thinking and praying for you and your family. You are such a strong fighter. All of us at the American Cancer Society are hoping that you will be home soon. Please let us know if there is anything we can do to make this challenging time any easier for you and your family. xoxo

  208. Amy S. says:

    Sending you virtual hugs and tremendous strength to get through this latest setback. Will be thinking of you and your family today. You inspire me to work even harder and smarter at ACS toward a day when no one has to endure what you have.

  209. Anji says:

    Always have you in my thoughts – you have a miniature army of folks at NIH who follow your blog (posted to the parenting listserve) – many, many prayers for you and your family. Anji Johnston

  210. Sunny K says:

    Wishing you all the best for a speedy recovery.

  211. Still thinking of you, still praying, and sending loads of love and strength your way. xoxo CGF

  212. Ruth says:

    Hoping beyond hope that you are ok.


  213. Thoughts and prayers.

  214. mary says:

    Hope you are already home and regaining strength. You are in my prayers daily.

  215. Alexandra says:

    I pray for calmness, peace, and all that you need right now.

    It is something I wish for you, so much.

  216. amanda says:

    Thinking of you – strength to you.

  217. Andrea (Big Blue Momma) says:

    Many prayers and hugs to you.

  218. Lisa says:

    Praying for you and your family. Please be safe and in the comfort of your home tonight!

  219. siobhan says:

    Susan, I hope the you are getting the relief you need right now. Praying for you and your (3!) boys.

  220. fudgelady says:

    Picture the support and love of this community as it surrounds you like a warm comfy blanket…

  221. Jen says:

    Thinking of you…

  222. Louise says:

    Thinking of you and those boys of yours, and hoping you are back home and gaining strength.

  223. claudiafauver413 says:

    Susan, my thoughts and prayers are with you as you continue to fight this horrible disease. Hoping that you will soon feel much better.

  224. Kristi says:

    Praying for you and your family …. hoping for comfort very soon ..

  225. Boston Mamas says:

    Sending love and hugs…

  226. Becki says:

    So sorry to be just reading this now, but praying as hard as I can, and sending love.

  227. Michelle says:

    Hoping and praying. Wishing that you are home with your family.

  228. Oh Susan,
    I add my thoughts and prayers to this very long list of people who love you and are concerned about you. Thinking of you and hoping, too that you are back home.


  229. Katie says:

    Checking in for updates and to remind you that you are never far from my mind. Sending love and peace.


  230. Lynn says:

    Love, well wishes and prayers ….. Enough to move a mountain and all for you. I know that God is holding you in the palm of his hand as He examines your sweet breath. May He revive you to breathe without stress and bring you comfort and peace. Blessings to your sweet boys and hubby, parents and besties.

  231. Prayers without ceasing for you and your loves.

  232. Peggy Dado says:

    I am praying the pneumonia wiil be cured and you will not be in pain. Prayers for your family. Feel well soon.

    IBC March 2007

  233. Juli says:

    Wishing you all the best Susan, take care

  234. Rachel says:

    I know we are complete strangers, but I’ve read your blog for some time and I am in such awe of your strength, courage, honesty, wit and humor…praying for you and your family every post I read…knowing you are in God’s hands and hoping for the best….Take care…

  235. Sending you big gusty breaths.

  236. *m* says:

    Thinking of you tonight, Susan. Hugs from here in the snowy northeast.

  237. Donna W says:

    Dear God, bless Susan and her family and take care of them as only You can.

  238. Cassandra says:

    Thinking of you Susan, and of your precious family. You are so loved.

  239. Cheryl says:

    Love and prayers for you and your family from Nova Scotia Canada

  240. Linda S. says:

    Thinking of you, Susan, and all those that love you so much. Attended your parents’ church this morning and put my hand on your name on the prayer request list with a special prayer to God for you and your family. Your strength, courage, and so many wise words have been a great comfort to so many all over the world.

  241. I tried to comment on today’s post but it’s gone. Wanted to let you know in case it wasn’t intentional.

    Thinking of you and your family and hoping you are not in pain.

    Hugs and prayers from this reader in New England,

  242. loran says:

    Oh Susan. Your wisdom and strength continue to shine as bright, bright lights. Your love for you husband and boys burning bright amidst the struggle, pain and sadness. You are incredible. You are loved. You are alive. You are such an incredible fighter. And you are an unbelievable inspiration. You are enveloped in love, prayers and peace and held in God’s hand. Peace be with you my friend. 🙂 xo

  243. *m* says:

    You and your wonderful husband and your two beautiful boys are in my heart and thoughts. I continue to be inspired and humbled by your incredible grace and strength. You are an amazing woman, mom, advocate, scientist — and one helluva writer! Sending love and prayers.

  244. Karen says:

    Praying for strength for you and yours.

  245. t says:

    Blessings to you and your family, Susan. You are all in my thoughts.

  246. Debsie_K says:

    Hi Susan,

    I am praying for you though I am reading this post a bit late. Thank you for sharing all your thoughts and experiences. As my mother struggles through a similar illness, I find reading your posts helps me to connect better wtih her and with what she is experiencing.


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