MOMS Club Magic

Dear MOMS Club,

I hope I can write this letter without crying. 

For the past three years, you gals have been my rock.  My touchstone.  My friends.  You’ve been there for me through some of the best and some of the hardest times of my life, and all I can say is … thank you. 

When we first met, I was the new mom of a 6 month old, unsure what to expect in a group of stay-at-home-moms.  I’d had my head buried in my work since we moved to D.C., and I had never taken the time to join a social club or neighborhood group, so I wasn’t really sure what lay ahead.  

What I found was a group of highly educated, motivated, driven moms determined to give their kids the best start in life they could offer them — and to be there for them, every step of the way.  Moms of infants and moms of toddlers, these women were sharp, educated, and up on the latest books and theories of child development.  Not that it was their field — in fact, our backgrounds were astonishingly diverse.  My first friends from the club included an engineer, a lawyer, a USAID worker, a Peace Corps volunteer, a CPA, a teacher, a nurse, a writer, an entrepreneur … amazingly experienced and with-it moms, who all — each and every one — had made the decision to put their careers aside for a while and spend their days at home with their children instead.

We took infants to playdates at parks.  Toddlers to museums.  Everyone to the zoo.  We opened our homes to each other for regular and spontaneous playdates, tearing apart playroom after playroom, but always — always — cleaning up together before we left.

Talk of teething and bedtimes soon gave way to more detailed discussion of theories of child-rearing, of independence, of curiousity, of limiting TV or expanding book collections.  The facades were dropped as we realized that there is no “perfect parent,” and SuperMom exists only in our imaginations.  Sooner or later, everyone forgets the juice box.  We relaxed and opened up to each other, sharing our fears, our worries, and most of all our joys at raising our children and being so lucky as to be able to be there for the big steps and the little ones, every day.  We hit it off pretty quickly. 

When my little one wasn’t crawling on time, we stepped up the playgroups with the crawlers; once he saw what was expected, he put one knee in front of the other and made it happen.  He went on from that to crawling up the steps at 9 months, walking at 11, and shimmying up the redwood playset at 12 months.  He and certain other little preschoolers in our group haven’t stopped climbing and running around since! 

But as much fun as we had together, I didn’t realize what friends I had in these women until I was diagnosed with cancer.  I didn’t know how to talk about it.  I didn’t know what to do next.  I told one friend, and then another, and then I sent out a note to my weekly playgroup with the news and a note that since I would have to start chemotherapy immediately, I would be really susceptible to infection, so would they please let me know if their kids were sick before playdate, and my kids and I would just skip that week?

Their response was overwhelming.  What can we do? they asked.  How can we help?  All I asked for was their friendship and their company.  I was scared to death.

The day before I was to start chemotherapy was July 4.  We’d planned for weeks to host a midweek barbecue at our house, to celebrate our friendships and include the dads in a rare family playdate.  My family helped me keep my promise, cooking, barbecuing, and answering the door while I sat in a chair out back and tried to be the cheery hostess, putting my fears about tomorrow aside.  To my surprise, everyone came.  All 10 families came to our house to visit and play and have one last perfect day before my fight with cancer began.  Everyone brought a treat, too:  every kind of side or dessert from potato salad to rhubarb pie, decorations, forks and napkins, and three kinds of cupcakes.  It was one of the most perfect days I’ve had in my life.  My friend Lisa brought t-shirts.  Pink t-shirts that she’d emblazoned herself with the bold slogan that Canape coined, TEAM WHYMOMMY.  We all put them on and took a picture together.

But that wasn’t the end of their show of support for me in my battle against this deadly cancer.  They got together and made a plan.  Each mom would take a week to be my lifeline; they would offer to do whatever I needed to make it through.  They were so generous with their offers:  errands, grocery store, Target, meals …. I was overwhelmed with gratitude.  Because I had family that also came to our rescue, I was able to keep the needs to a minimum:  a playdate here, a yes to a dinner there, and those simple needs were lifesaving this Summer and Fall.  The dinners brought us good nutrition when we were too distracted with determining treatment plans.  The playdates brought me psychic relief and exercise and friendship for my toddler.  Really, they kept me from slipping into a lonesome depression caused by my exhaustion and exasperation that I would have to deal with intense chemotherapy, so soon after an extended period on bed rest for my last pregnancy.  The weekly visits were critical to me during the first 3 months of chemo.

And every time I went to chemo, when I opened the door in the morning, a bright pink bag of goodies awaited me.  Those women had somehow found the time and energy to put together a bag of everything from homemade brownies to scarves to soft socks (my weakness) to bath oils, mints, and trashy magazines; anything they could think of to help me or distract me from the business at hand, and to deliver it to my doorstep early in the morning before I left for chemotherapy.  The bag itself was always covered in inspirational messages, exhortations, recipes, poems, and smiling faces.  An incredible show of support.

Now that I’m on weekly chemo, I told them (who? they do this anonymously, so I just guessed) that they should really feel free to stop.  It’s got to be a drain on them, and I really don’t want that to happen.  But they didn’t stop.  A bag was left on my doorstep again this week. 

And now, after listening to me cry one day, one of the moms helped organize even one more thing for me.  The thing that I need most of all while I try to recover from the chemo, the cancer, and an upper chest and arm that has been unusable for months.  They’re giving me the gift of time.  A mom is taking my oldest for a playdate once a week so that I can go to cancer yoga and try to make this arm work for me again.  So that my son can see friends and get out of the house.  So that we all can relax a little for an hour or two.  They’re going to do this for me for this coming week, and every week from now until my last chemo treatment in December. 

My MOMS Club is made up of incredible women.  All I can say is thank you.  Thank you.  And … I promise to be there for you when you need me.  Just say the word.

Love,
WhyMommy

Little Bear, Widget, WhyDaddy, and I love our MOMS Club friends!